Rock bottom is a subjective term. When people hear it most think of an addict on the streets or someone who has just been revived after an overdose. One of the many things in sobriety I have learned is that rock bottom is different to everyone. I want to make clear before I share my rock bottom that this is just my rock bottom and my story. Someone else might have a different rock bottom and my rock bottom should not invalidate theirs. My story is also not a dramatic and drawn out one because there was one moment when I realized I needed to change. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

I knew deep down I was an addict before I hit rock bottom. I had lied to myself thinking I could control my drinking\/using substances. In addition to that I would compare myself to addicts who treated their family worse or appeared worse off than me and rationalize my drinking\/using with that comparison. Rock bottom for me was not an overdose and it was not actually losing everything, it was almost losing everything. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

A few things lead to me getting treatment and my desire for a sober life. Coco had begged me to get help for awhile and I ignored her each time or lied to her each time. The moment I hit rock bottom was when she told me our marriage was over. Looking back on that time now I was headed straight for a rock bottom which might have meant losing my life. No matter what happens in the future I will always be thankful to Coco because without her I would not have started my sober life. The lowest moment for me was hearing the recording Coco had made when I blacked out. I can honestly say without hearing myself and the realization I sounded just like my abusive step-dad, sobriety would not have happened for me. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Rock bottom for me felt like defeat and was one of the most depressing places I have ever been in life. Once I started getting help for my issues and dealing with them I was able to get out of that dark place mentally and emotionally. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

If you\u2019re reading this as an active addict there is help out there for you. You just need to reach out for help and be willing to do some work. It might seem overwhelming but there are people who care about you and will help you into a sober life. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

If you\u2019re someone who loves someone in active addiction just know this is not your fault. Create boundaries with the active addict in your life for your own safety and sanity. Most importantly know the toxic behavior and treatment you have received is not something you should take personally. Coco had to learn over months that my treatment of her unfortunately came from my low self-esteem and my issues. She did nothing to deserve the treatment and neither did you. <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Rock bottom is a subjective term. When people hear it most think of an addict on the streets or someone who has just been revived after an overdose. One of the many things in sobriety I have learned is that rock bottom is different to everyone. I want to make clear before I share my … <\/p>\n

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